Consistency

So last February I started this whole diet/exercise thing. I dropped down a pants size and soon started feeling a hell of a lot healthier. Today I had pop tarts for lunch and worked out for the first time in two weeks. Inconsistent exercise is better than none, right?

I wish I could say that this is not a normal life pattern, but I have to admit that it is. I get really into something and then I just stop. I could be in shape, have better writing skills, and progress a lot further spiritually if I learned to focus. Being able to have the desire and willpower to continuously better myself is currently one of my greatest challenges.

What makes this situation particularly frustrating is that I'm talking about stuff I enjoy doing. I like writing and expressing my ideas, even if they aren't shared. Playing DDR is super awesome fun. Meditation makes me feel more connected to the earth and keeps me evened out. Yet I struggle with doing these kind of things on a daily basis. What the hell. I need to be more passionate about my passions.

Being Grounded

I've recently finished reading a book about psychic development (It's called, naturally, "Basic Psychic Development") and it's a pretty interesting read. It's a system developed by John Friedlander and Gloria Hemsher and it's broken down by relationships (with the earth, self, others, and "God of heart"). It focuses on the development of chakras, auras, and energy, and it was a pretty interesting read.

Now that I've read it through, I'm going to start practicing some of the techniques. Right now, I'm only interested in the first half of the book (earth and self), but it would be nice to be able to develop enough ability to help others and explore what lies beyond me. The first thing it teaches is how to ground oneself: sending negative, unwanted, and/or excess energy into the earth and being able to take in fresh energy. I know a lot of people think this kind of thing is bullshit, but it's worth a try, or at least some research.

My biggest problem so far is just being able to focus long enough to meditate properly. I downloaded some Buddhist chants, and that really helps, especially with the sound of traffic constantly going by. >.<>